I used to imagine love as something volcanic -- at all events the love I was destined to feel. Yes; I really thought I should only be able to love in a savege, devastating way, a la Byron.
一個14歲的少年...他說出這樣的愛的時候，到底是編出來的呢？把從書上看到的不是自己卻當作是自己？還是，其實這樣的年紀，已經知道愛有這樣的形式？volcanic...savage...devastating......冥王式的愛
How ill I knew myself! It was you, Larua, who taught me to know myself; so different from what I thought I was! I was playing the part of a dreadful person and making desperate efforts to resemble him. When I think of the letter I wrote my supposed father before I left home, I feel very much ashamed, I assure you. I took myself for a rebel, an outlaw;
and now here I find that [when I am with you I have no desires]. I longed for liberty as the [supreme good], and no sooner was I free, than I bowed myself to your...Oh, if you only knew how maddening it is [to have in one's head quantities of phrases from great authors, which come irresistibly to one's lips when one wants to express a sincere feeling]. This feeling of mine is so new to me that I [haven't yet been able to invent a language for it]. Let's say it isn't love, since you dislike that word; let's call it [devotion]. It's as though this liberty which seemed to me so [infinite], had had limits set to it by your laws. It's as though all the turbulent and unformed things that were stirring within me, were [dancing an harmonious round], with you for their centre. If one of my thoughts happens to stray from you, I leave it...Laura, [I don't ask you to love me] -- I'm nothing but a school boy; I'm not worth your notice; but [everything I want to do now is in order to deserve your...(oh! the word is frightful!)...your esteem]....
14歲...岩井俊二關於莉莉周周的一切，主角們的年紀也是設定在14歲......
或許，我將發現更多線索...關於這個歲數的祕密......
知道了那邏輯之後，很難拒絕以之思考
太典型了
所有的關鍵字眼、表達意象
全部，都是海王星的
只不過Burnard還不知道Laura是他藉以感受海王之愛的一個媒介---經由對這個個人的attachmant，他感受到的其實是海王式的愛
have no desires...long for supreme good...not able to invent a language for...devotion...infinite...不求回報的愛
